Firstly I just want to say thank you for your lovely comments I found them so touching and supportive, from people I know but would not recognise if I passed them in the street, to many that would seem quite strange,but that's what makes blogging so wonderful. Those comments really encouraged me to keep going. It is so easy to forget the things that have filled your time and blogging is a way of recording them to look back on.
Writing my post this time I feel much less harassed and I have looked forward to sitting down and doing it. Although as I sit here I have just realised why I am feeling slightly uncomfortable. I am sitting on top of 6 pieces of lining fabric which I really need to take down stairs. I will make sure I do that as soon as I have finished.
I am also feeling better as I have managed to find the time to get my hair cut at last , so no longer look like a rat peeping out of a haystack.
As I was working away today I was thinking to myself about the rewards of being a mum. Motherhood has been part of my life that I have always been fully committed to. I had a fantastic role model in my own mother and over the years I have often thought about how full her plate was and yet there was always time for us, so I have tried to follow her philosophy. She always reassured me that the difficult times that come with bringing up children always pays off. I would tell this to myself when I sat alone on a hospital ward with Lucy giving her hourly nebulisers to relieve her asthma and the lonely nights sat trying to stop her ripping her own skin off when eczema threatened to drive her and me almost to insanity.
Over the past few weeks I have been watching quietly (unheard of for me)giving as much support as I can, as my Lucy sets off on off on a very scary trip setting up her own business.
So what is my reward? .............. I get to make 6!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! roman blinds for her studio. My mum never told me that bit.
4 chocolate brown and 2 pink floral.
Going back to times when I think of mum and what she coped with, I was given one of those reminders a few days ago. We were collecting some furniture from my sister for Lucy. My little nephew was still up when we arrived full of beans at 8pm having woken his mum that morning at 5am. He was excited to see us and wanted to show me his new big bed. As soon as we were in his room he threw himself onto the bed and bounced up and down until he had made himself cough. He missed the sloping ceiling by about 2". Next I took on the battle of getting him into his pyjamas, playing those games where you have to take ages to count to 5 so they can independently take off their clothes in that little unco-ordintaed way they have. In between each garment that was removed more jumping on the bed ensued. As I watched him wondering, where all that energy comes from and hoping he didn't miss the bed and crash to the floor breaking himself or something else in the process, I realised I was looking at another one of me!!!! the little person who was always found sitting on the furniture the wrong way up, the little person that bounced everywhere nick named by my Uncle Alf as Wenders Benders. So mum, I want to say how sorry I am that I wore you out on endless occasions and how relieved I am that I seem to have a daughter that was and is so much like my sister. Maybe that is why my sister is such a good mum to her son because she has had years of experience growing up with me.